Archive for May, 2005
May 17th, 2005 -- Posted in PPD, family, life as a mom |
So I’m 25. Feels about the same as 24. Had an okay birthday weekend – lots of little special things. The actual day wasn’t the super-special-all-about-me-for-once day I was kinda hoping it would be, but it was nice. I think instead of trying to set aside chunks of “me” time on rare occasions, I will try to take “me” time more often in smaller doses.
I’m starting to let others either fend for themselves a little or figure things out for themselves a little. Like, everyone. Like letting Avery play a little more independently now that he’s a little older, letting Harmony get a headstart on going to the park while I get Avery ready, and showing that I’m confident in Paul’s abilities to be a good parent and handle the “home” stuff. It’s hard, but I’m working on it.
Still having issues with figuring out where to “be” when it comes to family and friends. Got flowers from Dee-Dee so who knows if she’s still mad at me or what. My usual phone phobia continues, I always seem to get phone calls when the last thing I want to do is talk to someone, but when I’m lonely, there are no calls. Still not sure about going out and doing social things, I think I’m still going ahead with my birthday party this weekend.
Avery seems to be sleeping better, including daytime – yay! I don’t know what made the difference but all of a sudden – click. He has had a few nice long afternoon naps and is going to bed around 7/8pm and going until 4/5/6am with maybe a couple soother-runs. Sure, I’ll take the uninterupted sleep and longer stretches of time during the day in which to get things done!
I’m starting to feel my PPD starting to lift, thank God. What a huge relief. Still having good days and bad days, but able to see a lot more clearly and feel more grounded again. Still having lots of “want to throw something moments” but much less often. Still feeling alone, but more in control of being able to help myself get out of that. Crying a lot less. I wouldn’t say I’m out of the woods yet, but I’m at the point where I can sense real progress.
Have been on a supermommy/superspouse/superhomemaker/superwoman kick the past couple days… Monday I walked/jogged for an hour, swung by the store on the way home for bottle liners and diapers, did 3/4 loads of laundry, put all the finishing touches on my wedding scrapbook, turned the skipping rope for Harmony with Avery in the Snuggli, finished the PPD book I was reading, etc! Today I sang songs with Avery, did a power yoga class in the morning, went to the mall, took Avery to playgroup (and chatted a lot with the other moms), folded and put away most of the laundry, listened to Harmony read a longish french book, took the kids to the park, and tried a Spinning class tonight (and ran into the yoga teacher who commented on me being there twice in one day).
Going to rest a bit now after all that! First things first (well, okay, after posting this, obviously) is a bowl of ice cream, I think I deserve one. 
May 7th, 2005 -- Posted in OLD, fitness, life as a mom |
Thought I would update on how my fitness plan was going (maybe I’ll try to do this weekly for the first 10 weeks at least)…
It’s the end of week 2, and I met my simple fitness goals – I got my minimum 3 “blocks” of exercise in. As a result, I’m down another 2 lbs.
Did a huge power walk on Monday with some light jogging thrown in (I must have been encouraged by my new snazzy track pants). Then my legs were killing me for a few days, so I downgraded to “just” a walk mid-week. Did another big walk/jog on Friday morning as well. I also did a tour of the RF fitness centre and decided to go ahead and get the 6-month membership! So I’m making the commitment to work out there at least a couple times a week until November. I’ll try to alternate between aquafit, swimming, the weight room, the cardio room, spinning classes, and aerobic/yoga/etc. classes to keep things interesting and to keep myself motivated. I’m feeling really positive about having a place to go to work out that has everything I need!
We’ve been working on changing our eating habits over here, and Paul’s mom lent us a WW booklet. We’d started to track our “points” but I just found it waaaay too overwhelming for me. Finding out that I’m going sooooo much over my daily “limit” of how much I should be eating just made me feel depressed and discouraged. I made my fitness plan simple and easy to follow through with for a reason – so that I wouldn’t get too discouraged to do anything at all! So although I will be watching my portion sizes and snacking habits, I’m not going to track calories all day. With this voracious nursing-mommy appetite, it just doesn’t jive well (I’m constantly snacking throughout the day). And my focus isn’t really on changing what I eat, it’s about being more active!
So far, it’s going well! 
May 5th, 2005 -- Posted in OLD, Uncategorized, family |
I posted Avery’s 18-week journal entry already (link), but wanted to add more here… If you are the type of person who prays, please do, and if not, just please keep Avery in your thoughts…
He’s such a happy and healthy little guy in general, but does have a handful of health problems… They haven’t been too serious yet, but are starting to interfere with his growth and development and cause some concern…
His reflux has been getting worse lately, and at his 4-month check-up yesterday, we discovered that he really hasn’t been gaining much weight lately. He was 13lbs, 5oz a month ago, but is only 13lbs, 10oz this week. Just to give a point of reference, he used to gain 5 oz like that in one week! All babies do slow down a little bit, but they usually stay on their own growth curve and he’s not doing that. He has dropped from being above the 50th percentile to being below it, in both height and weight. His weight at certain points used to be very similar to what Harmony’s was at the same age, but now he is a full pound behind her. So that’s really worrisome to think about. It could be the reflux, but maybe my milk supply is not good enough, or maybe he’s not eating enough, or maybe a hundred different things…
We’ve starting him on rice cereal so we’re hoping that will help things out (by both helping him gain more weight and helping the reflux calm down a little so that he keeps more of his other meals down to gain weight).
Also, his head circumfrence has been a worry since his 2-month check-up and was still a concern this time. So the doctor sent us to CHEO for a skull x-ray, just as a precaution. We went today and all I have to say is that I am so in awe of the strength and courage that parents must have to keep going there with sick children. Even going there with Avery for a “just in case” x-ray was heart-breaking and frightening, and we aren’t even facing anything serious. It was such an awful experience and I cried so much hearing my baby cry that hard and not being able to help him. I was so worried about what they would do to keep him still, and it wasn’t pleasant (basically, they wrap them up super tightly and press foam pads against their heads tightly to keep them in place). I am so glad that it’s over and that Avery doesn’t have to do that again.
I just hope the x-ray results come back normal (CHEO is sending them to our doctor and said it should take maybe 10 days). So if you are the praying type, please do that!
After all that we’ve been through to get our healthy baby, I am so desperate to have him stay healthy!
