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Ode to my house plants

This is an ode to all the house plants that have died during my depression
And to the ones that (miraculously) survived…

Your leafy greeness couldn’t keep me whole
Or motivated to get off the floor
When I was falling to my lowest low
And didn’t think that I could do much more

Then your fading didn’t wake me up
I saw your roots distressed, your soil dry
But still I didn’t hear the call to arms
Still I could not bring myself to try

As the small and weak ones withered next
I still could just stare vacantly and pray
These heavy hands which could not carry water
As life within me faded day by day

I burried some of you from time to time
Each one an added guilt for me to bear
A failure of my always nurturing ways
A sign that I had lost my knack of care

And yet I noticed tiny shoots of green
A chosen few showed strength to carry on
Burried deep within their soil was stored
The history of care from days long gone

I’d given of myself when once I could
For some, it was enough to last them through
Their leaves stood proudly seeking for the sun
While waiting for the time I’d come anew

So open up the windows, bring the light
Dust off the watering can, prepare the soil
A whispering is afoot that time is nigh
For mother’s hands to turn back to her toil

I meet these days with face towards the dawn
The hope within me brimming over my cup
Against all this uncertainty I am strong
As I struggle boldy to get up

This dark floor – my resting place too long
All that I have missed and lost, I mourn
But as I look to plants that still live on
Inspiration comes in hope reborn

I’ve been waiting to write that for a very long time. I think it was finally time though, I hope it was.