Mommy had a bad day too…
January 9th, 2008 -- Posted in family, work/career | 2 Comments »So today Avery was having a tantrum as Paul wrestled him into his carseat at the end of the day @ daycare. And he told me he’d had a bad day.
So a little while later, when I was curled up in my fave chair here in the family room, crying, and he asked me what was wrong, I just said “Mommy had a bad day too”.
So I can forget about blogging from work. Had a meeting today with my (main) boss and she came right out and told me to limit my internet use and that it was “discouraged” and that if I was ever bored I could just tell her and she’d find me some work to do.
It’s not that I had been hoping for hours upon hours of free time. But I was thinking it would be nice if I had a bit of time each morning to drink my coffee and settle in by checking my daily pages. And maybe hang out a bit on my YM boards if at the end of the day my work was done.
Ever since the Firefox issue (before Christmas, my 2nd boss found out I’d installed it and freaked out on me for breaking policy), it’s been pretty stressful. I feel like they are watching me extra closely. And they probably are. Meanwhile, with the winter weather, I’ve been late a bunch of times too!! which does not look good. 
Still 1 month of probation to go (which is strange because usually it’s 3 months, which would be in a couple days for me!!). Still trying to decide for sure for sure I want to stay there. And they might be thinking about whether or not they want to keep me!
Sometimes I feel like I would be stupid to give up this job just because I won’t have any time to get bored and surf the web. But sometimes I think, well, the whole point of getting an easy job where I could get the work done no problem and have some “space” to my day was to make sure I didn’t burnout again!!!
Paul and I have discussed how the “gifted” thing factors into these type of issues. And really I feel in a way it’s like being punished for working more quickly than the average person – you just end up doing more work!! This was what I ended up doing @ Ceridian and I’m sure was part of the reason I crashed so hard. Instead shouldn’t you feel rewarded for working so efficiently by having some nice “I’m all caught up” time?
Anyways, lots to think about.
So also I didn’t end up going to the gym tonight like I’d thought I might. The bad day combined with having been out pretty late last night scrapbooking kind of influenced that decision. After tucking Avery in, I went for a nap myself. (and he got into stuff in the bathroom, whoops).
Feeling just all-around awful with everything combined.
