Lost the new job
January 14th, 2008 -- Posted in work/career | 6 Comments »So last week I made a “pros” and “cons” list of whether or not to stay @ the CBS job.
And looking at it, I’d decided it was worth it to stay and give it a shot.
It turns out it didn’t matter anyways – I was let go this morning.
I’d come in this morning and finished all of the day’s work by 8:20. So I worked for about an hour and checked off yet another box on my big list of “Extra Projects”, which is more than half complete. I’d literally just sent a note to my bosses on Friday letting them know if they wanted to keep me from being bored, could they please think of some more extra projects for me to start in Feb/March which is when I estimated I’d run out of all the work I’d been told I could get to in my spare time.
So I’m starting a different extra project, when my boss calls me for a meeting. And then started heading for the hallway instead of her office. Not a good sign. Walk into a little room (same one I was interviewed in) and my HR rep is sitting there. Really not a good sign. And sure enough, that was it. Letter confirming I was being let go, no I couldn’t go back to my desk to claim my things, my boss would pack up a box for me. Escorted to my car, handed in my pass, etc.
At least at Ceridian I’d had some time to say my goodbyes.
I had just passed the 3-month mark on Friday. But probation there was actually 4 months. So they didn’t have to give a reason for why they weren’t keeping me, they just gave the usual “wasn’t a good fit” spiel.
All of this leaves me terrified I’ll never find a place where I’ll fit in.
It reminds me of the whole gifted-kids-who-drop-out-of-school-because-they-get-too-bored problem. Is there an adult version? If so, this must be it. Gifted adults who can’t settle into any workplace. Who take on too much work and burn out. Or who take on too little work and get bored.
I also suspect part of the problem was that I have a very busy online life. They weren’t happy with the fact that I was going online, even though I was getting all of my work done!! and even though I was not spending huge amounts of time online. And yet I was hired because of my web expertise so I could help them with their website, so how is that fair?!?
It’s just not fair, that’s the problem. I’m a hard worker, I’m a good worker, I’m a fast worker. I need some extra support because of my health but I more than make up for that. I’m gifted so I need work tasks that will interest me and challenge me. If I’m bored, yes I will turn to getting things accomplished in my personal life.
So how can I find a place that will take me, this complete package? I thought maybe this was it but I guess I was wrong. 
