Mommy had a bad day too…
So today Avery was having a tantrum as Paul wrestled him into his carseat at the end of the day @ daycare. And he told me he’d had a bad day.
So a little while later, when I was curled up in my fave chair here in the family room, crying, and he asked me what was wrong, I just said “Mommy had a bad day too”.
So I can forget about blogging from work. Had a meeting today with my (main) boss and she came right out and told me to limit my internet use and that it was “discouraged” and that if I was ever bored I could just tell her and she’d find me some work to do.
It’s not that I had been hoping for hours upon hours of free time. But I was thinking it would be nice if I had a bit of time each morning to drink my coffee and settle in by checking my daily pages. And maybe hang out a bit on my YM boards if at the end of the day my work was done.
Ever since the Firefox issue (before Christmas, my 2nd boss found out I’d installed it and freaked out on me for breaking policy), it’s been pretty stressful. I feel like they are watching me extra closely. And they probably are. Meanwhile, with the winter weather, I’ve been late a bunch of times too!! which does not look good. 
Still 1 month of probation to go (which is strange because usually it’s 3 months, which would be in a couple days for me!!). Still trying to decide for sure for sure I want to stay there. And they might be thinking about whether or not they want to keep me!
Sometimes I feel like I would be stupid to give up this job just because I won’t have any time to get bored and surf the web. But sometimes I think, well, the whole point of getting an easy job where I could get the work done no problem and have some “space” to my day was to make sure I didn’t burnout again!!!
Paul and I have discussed how the “gifted” thing factors into these type of issues. And really I feel in a way it’s like being punished for working more quickly than the average person – you just end up doing more work!! This was what I ended up doing @ Ceridian and I’m sure was part of the reason I crashed so hard. Instead shouldn’t you feel rewarded for working so efficiently by having some nice “I’m all caught up” time?
Anyways, lots to think about.
So also I didn’t end up going to the gym tonight like I’d thought I might. The bad day combined with having been out pretty late last night scrapbooking kind of influenced that decision. After tucking Avery in, I went for a nap myself. (and he got into stuff in the bathroom, whoops).
Feeling just all-around awful with everything combined.
January 09 2008 09:54 pm | family and work/career
January 10th, 2008 at 11:31 am
And really I feel in a way it’s like being punished for working more quickly than the average person – you just end up doing more work!
I totally understand. I had that happen at a previous job (actually a couple of them, come to think of it) where I ended up doing all my work, plus my supervisor’s, at the same pay rate as a lowly underling. It got to the point that one supervisor used to go take multiple-hour naps in his car in the middle of the work day while I handled the work that was to be done.
I’ve learned that bosses don’t like it when it looks like you’re goofing off, even when you’ve done everything you’ve been asked to do and you’ve made sure that there’s nothing else that should be done. That’s why the Net is so much better than bringing in a book — it kind of looks like work. But if they’ve cut that off for you too, you might just have to talk to your bosses and explain why this is such a bad idea. They have to understand that you can’t keep on taking on more and more responsibility in comparison to your co-workers just because you work more quickly. If you were to be employed as a “whatever the jobs are that they’re asking you to do on top of your work”, you should be paid like one and given the appropriate benefits. Although I’d totally understand if you waited until you’re permanent before you do this.
I know, I’m one to talk, when I get fed up with a job I just move on. That’s one of the few nice things about being a temp. But honestly, in the past I never had an understanding/good manager for a boss or job security enough to make it worthwhile to duke it out with a supervisor about appropriate volume of work for my level of pay.
January 11th, 2008 at 9:24 pm
THanks chickie, and yah today I ended up writing them a little update and found a way to try to politely point out that I’m doing A) all the work done by the previous employee B) additional work added on and C) also extra projects!! (and I gave them the list, which is already half checked off and I’ve only been there 3 months!!). I hope maybe they take the hint and figure if I can get alllllll that work done even while occasionaly surfing the net, then that might not be such a bad thing to let me do! *fingers crossed*