overdoing it
Ok, had some conversations with Paul and also with friends and I think I’m coming to realize that my method of “take-lots-of-painkillers-so-you-can-go-on-pretending-life-is-normal” tactic is reeeeeeally not good for me or any of the people who depend on me.
So, some resolutions:
I am going to try not to “perk and drive”.
I am going to try to only use as little strength of painkiller as possible.
I am going to talk to my doctor today about alternative sleep aids.
I am going to try to stay in bed when I wake up @ 3am.
I am going to sleep when I need sleep and rest when I need rest instead of pushing on and messing things up (e.g. ending up writing really typo-filled slurred unintelligible things in my blog or on message boards).
I am going to admit that life is not “normal” right now and that if the kids have to miss out a little on special things (like cupcakes or gymnastics) because I need to recover from this accident, then that’s OK for now.
It took a lot of “overdoing it” to come to these realizations but now that I have, hopefully I can do what I can to kill that bad habit of mine once and for all. I woke up in tons and tons of pain this morning so let that serve as a reminder to myself to just stop already. 
March 18 2008 08:25 am | pain / disability and painkillers
