Archive for April, 2008
April 22nd, 2008 -- Posted in OCD, people suck |
everytime something negative happens with YM, I just feel like saying “screw it” and pitching the whole thing out. Why put soooooo much work and time and money into something that causes so much grief? Why try so hard to help people and be nice to people and have things just explode in your face.
There is literally a “room” full of people who all know each other *because of me* in the first place, but who all hate me now!!!!!! How on earth does that make any sense??
There is just no fairness in life anymore. I’m so f*ing fed up. I’ve suffered so much, lost so much, and been put through so much. It just seems like it will never stop!!!! Everything keeps getting completely tainted and contaminated from this one triggering issue. It spreads like some disgusting disease.
I am taking a break from the YUM community (since no one posts there anymore, they just post in another community that *I* created but let them have without me being there). And I’m going to go delete people from my Facebook now.
I can’t do this anymore. It just makes me fall apart everytime.
April 13th, 2008 -- Posted in massage/physio/chiro, pics, things that make you go LOL |
So I have been thinking about it a while and finally “took the plunge” and got my hair cut really short again!!
It’s as short as it was during my university days as a single mom when Harmony was a bit younger than Avery. Like that picture of me and her that everyone who sees tells me “you look good with short hair!” 
Lots of reasons I finally went for it:
It’s very good “toddler” hair, it’ll be easier to wash and take care of, it’s good “post-car-accident” hair (already out of the way for physio and massage!), it’s a good style for my new gained-40-pounds-back figure!, and most of all, it’s a funky-spiky-fun look which helps give me an emotional boost! 
here’s a pic…
ETA: Found a copy of the pic I’m talking about (I have a copy on my Facebook):
http://photos-187.ll.facebook.com/photos-ll-sf2p/v171/177/121/782975187/n782975187_2123042_2672.jpg
April 1st, 2008 -- Posted in pain / disability, painkillers |
Got a few things accomplished this morning and felt positive about it!! including helping get the kids and Paul out the door which is a challenge usually anyways!
Felt ok until 11am when the painkillers wore off. Discovered I only had 3 T3s left (and I don’t see the Dr. until late tomorrow morning). So I took a couple of Robaxacets to see if that was enough. And as usual, it wasn’t. 
And then I haven’t been able to take anything for a long time because they are on a 6-hour sched instead of 4.
Tried to sleep at 1:30 but got woken up by stupid telemarketing after maybe about an hour? Tried reading for a while but it just made the pain a lot worse. Reading seems to be really bad just because of the combination of holding the book out in front or up and bending my neck to see it. Even propped up on pillows or if I slouch down I can’t seem to get a comfy position.
So for now it’s just a countdown to painkiller time! I’m going to take a percocet next and maybe try to go to our scrapbooking night even though I might not end up scrapbooking. Maybe seeing some of my friends will cheer me up.
