YM

everytime something negative happens with YM, I just feel like saying “screw it” and pitching the whole thing out. Why put soooooo much work and time and money into something that causes so much grief? Why try so hard to help people and be nice to people and have things just explode in your face.

There is literally a “room” full of people who all know each other *because of me* in the first place, but who all hate me now!!!!!! How on earth does that make any sense??

There is just no fairness in life anymore. I’m so f*ing fed up. I’ve suffered so much, lost so much, and been put through so much. It just seems like it will never stop!!!! Everything keeps getting completely tainted and contaminated from this one triggering issue. It spreads like some disgusting disease.

I am taking a break from the YUM community (since no one posts there anymore, they just post in another community that *I* created but let them have without me being there). And I’m going to go delete people from my Facebook now.

I can’t do this anymore. It just makes me fall apart everytime.

April 22 2008 09:25 am | OCD and people suck

6 Responses to “YM”

  1. asharose Says:
    April 22nd, 2008 at 12:56 pm

    “There is literally a “room” full of people who all know each other *because of me* in the first place, but who all hate me now”

    My heart goes out to you. I can definitely sympathize just from my own experiences with my own friends (for example, Kaitlin started out as my friend but is now Kenza’s friend & she also dropped me from her Facebook). One thing that helps me keep my sanity is just stepping away from these toxic relationships and focusing on my healthy friendships. Because I’m so sensitive, I know now that for my own good I can’t keep people in my life who are always playing mind games with me or setting off emotional triggers in me.

    Do what is best for you, Kris. *hug*

  2. tintin_snowy Says:
    April 22nd, 2008 at 8:57 pm

    i agree, kris. focus on the healthy relationships in your life. i don’t know why people become so uncaring… but i guess we can’t control what others do, just how we deal or feel about it.

    (((HUGS)))

    emma

  3. animatedlady Says:
    April 23rd, 2008 at 10:56 pm

    Yep! Focus on your healthy relationships and friends. Pull all the good ones around you and focus on getting healthy yourself too. Many hugs for you next time we meet!

    You take care Kris. I miss you and Paul and Harmony and little Avery who is so growing so so very fast!

    Val

  4. krismom Says:
    April 24th, 2008 at 10:34 am

    Thanks chickie, ad yes we’re definitely going through the same thing… do you have days where you are just wondering why the hell people can’t wake up and realize they are doing something wrong?! :(

  5. krismom Says:
    April 24th, 2008 at 10:35 am

    Thanks chickie, I really should do that. I wish I was the type of person who could just make the negative stuff not bother me, but I am not at that point yet. Thanks for the hugs!!!

  6. krismom Says:
    April 24th, 2008 at 10:36 am

    Thanks chickie, I definitely do need to do this more!! let the positive relationships seep in and shut the negative ones out!! hope to see you soon!