Creating Kris

the “adult” thing to do?

well, I was ready to let this all go, to have it all finally stop.

but nope, the harassment continues.

in reply to my *2nd* request to stop contacting me and stop harassing me, Melissa Hilchey contacted me *again*.

all along, I’ve never done anything except sending e-mails to people I knew and “venting” about it online. meanwhile, she has called CAS on us, sent 3 cops to our home, then later on opened up a new police file accusing me of harassment. notice a difference much????

in one of her recent harassing comments, she accused me of not being “adult” because I posted about stuff on my blog. well I guess her interpretation of being “adult” is completely over-reacting to situations by notifying authorities.

so as much as I hate to stoop to this level, I feel I have to at this point.

I’ve finally called the police, and I’ve finally called my lawyer. I really didn’t want to have to do this, but I just want everything to STOP.

a bad nightmare

bad nightmare…

I was home alone (which I often have been these days since the car accident) and the doorbell rang. I opened the door and it was Melissa Hilchey. (I have no clue where she lives but she knows where I live) For some reason she had a really huge fruit basket. I screamed and kicked the basket out of her hands and fruit went rolling around my front steps and onto the walkway. I tried to close and lock the door but she forced her way through, I was too physically weak to stop her. She knocked me down and I was face-down on the front hallway carpet. I struggled to get up. She grabbed a knife from the kitchen and stood on my back in her painful shoes. She was yelling and screaming at me frantically. “I’m so much better than you!” she shouted. She started stabbing me in the back. “Admit that I’m better than you!” she threatened, pausing in the stabbing. “Say it!” She held the knife really close to my back so that I could feel the sharpness. “Say I’m not the only one who had CAS come! Say that I’m not a bad mother for having CAS take my own baby away! Say that you’re so much worse than me!” I didn’t say anything, so she started stabbing me again. “Admit that I’m more powerful than you!!!” She just kept screaming and stabbing. I at least managed to scream out “No!” before I lost consciousness, but there was blood gurgling out my mouth.

Yuck, creepy. I can’t wait until this is all over and I can have 100% of my life back.

I sent both of them an e-mail yesterday asking (for the 2nd time) that they stop contacting me. I attached the emails from the 1st time when I’d asked them to not contact me. So hopefully that’s it, that’s all. Done, done, done. They should just leave me alone and stop interfering with my life. Hopefully they can both find better ways to feel good about themselves other than picking on someone who has OCD which causes obsessive thoughts about every little piece of conflict that happens. Hopefully they won’t simply move on to kicking dogs or tripping blind people or something, but will actually stop feeling the need to hurt others in order to make themselves feel more powerful.

I also sent Sarah an e-mail asking her to help make them stop. I told her she’s a good person and that there must be some loyalty left. If she tells them “Look, quit picking on Kris, haven’t you put her through enough?”, then maybe they will listen.

If it all doesn’t stop here, well I don’t know what I’m going to do next. I talked to Paul about getting restraining orders against them, but he says it’s probably more paperwork/trouble than it’s worth. I don’t know if there’s anything much I can do legally, the police probably don’t give a damn about getting involved in a fight over e-mails and blogs and phone calls. They are trying to hurt me, sure, but they haven’t come around my house or tracked my down. Krissie came over to my (small) neighbourhood and the only grocery store that I go to (it’s the only one close to me), but as Paul joked at least she wasn’t chasing me with her grocery cart or anything. Melissa said she called the police on me, but that could’ve just been a threat, a lie meant to rattle me. When she posted anonymously in my blog I didn’t go calling the police on her so I don’t know what their reaction would be to something you can’t really prove and could be fabricated by the owner of the blog. And all I have as proof is a CAS file and a handful of harassing e-mails, like the original “I called CAS on you” e-mail, and a few e-mails from when Melissa said she wouldn’t contact me but then kept repeatedly e-mailing me to take her off my LJ list.

I called my psychiatrist yesterday to see if I could squeeze into a cancellation spot or something, and there had been a cancellation but there was one person on the waiting list so he said he had to offer it to her first before I could have it. So I might not get in to see him to be able to talk all of this over but at least I do get to see him next week, so maybe that will help me feel more calm and be able to just keep moving on like I had succeeded in doing on Monday after my vent … until Krissie crossed over into my little online “world” to stir things up even more. Ugh, seriously, I rant about people intruding on my territory so what do they do? Intrude on it more and upset me more. Some people really make me wonder.

Ok, I’m going to try to go back to sleep now (it’s 4:25 am and I’ve been up since about maybe 3:30am?)… hopefully the painkillers have kicked in and my heat pad has helped. I did go to physio yesterday but after all the stress I was put through, I still had a lot of pain. Sucks that I’m in a position where people can so easily affect me emotionally and physically just from a few simple mean actions… When I’m recovered from the car accidents and recovered from the PPD and OCD, I’ll be so glad to be able to feel a little less fragile and vulnerable.

more from the “bad friends” file

So I was going to vent about it on my blog and leave it there.

But no. The cruel/mean/vindictive people had other plans.

So in a bizarre twist…

In Oct 2006, I *specifically* asked Krissie (in writing!) not to contact me if it was not supportive.

In April 2008, Melissa asked me (for the 1st time!!!!) not to contact her. She called the police right away. She said she would get their help if I ever contacted her again.

In May 2008, Krissie contacted me by posting on *my* blog with bitchy and sarcastic verbal abuse.

In May 2008, I *repeated* my request (for the 2nd time!!!!) that she never contact me again if it was not supportive.

Did I call the police though?

No, of course not, I’m not a bitch.

ETA: OK, this is so pathetic it’s almost hysterically funny…

In digging around my October 2006 e-mails, I found an e-mail I sent to Melissa in October 2006 asked her not to contact me!!!!!! So her email in April 2008 (telling me she called the police on me and asking me not to contact her) is actually a violation of that previous request!!!!!!

I think that information should definitely be added to whatever police file exists.

bad friends keep showing their faces

so I’ve added a “bad friends” category to my blog

and I didn’t think I’d be using it for new entries, just for categorizing old ones

how hard is it for them to figure out the whole “if you’re going to be mean, just stay the f* away?” thing!? no, apparently they are not that smart.

had an incident yesterday that sent me spiraling into yet another set of obsessions about that whole group, that whole situation, all the mean things they’ve said or done to me. anytime something happens with them, it just brings it *all* churning back up again and makes me so miserable.

thought about retaliating somehow, about sending an e-mail or something, but knowing them they would just find some way to twist it into something else and turn it back on me like they always do.

so I will just vent in my blog instead:

Krissie – stay the f* out of my territory and out of my face!!!!

ok, had to get that off my chest. meant to blog it last night but was actually in too much pain. ouch. chalk Monday up to a reeeeeeeally bad Monday and let’s move on with the week!!!