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regrets

I envy the people who can say they have “no regrets”. I find I’m constantly haunted by choices made that could’ve ended up differently.

even after the 1st car accident, I would run it over and over in my mind… if only I’d been driving on a different road that day, or ten minutes later, or or or! I wouldn’t've been hit.

and for things I’ve actually made the decisions about for myself, it’s worse. I *could’ve* chosen differently and didn’t, and now I’m dealing with the repercussions of that.

I’m being inundated with negative events lately.

Last week when I went to the aquafit class I started taking, the elevator said “out of service”! So I sat at the top of the stairs in my walker trying to decide what to do.

I’ve still been getting those calls about jobs. This afternoon I got a call from an agency I’d signed up for a long time ago who had a great opportunity – long-term government contract with Infrastructure. I gave up the one with Agriculture Canada last week, and nothing has changed! I’m still hobbling around, so I had to explain I couldn’t even go for this one either.

Avery’s been home sick (Paul’s on course and so I’ve been taking care of him) and it sucks. He knows Mommy can’t do sh*t to enforce the consequences. Ironically, my OCD’s been much better over the past little while – why couldn’t I have had a break in between these 2 different debilitating conditions that keep me from being the kind of mother I want to be?

I had to miss my examination today, and meanwhile got a letter informing me of 3 more!! So that’s 4 days of “tests” with various doctors that my car accident insurance can force me to go through. It’s legal, I checked. I think the person I talked to was onto something when she guessed that they throw so much paper in your direction because they hope you’ll just give up and leave them alone.

This is on top of the other things that are making this a bad day that I don’t even want to get into.

It feels like our family is totally screwed over.

It’s the world against us and we are losing.

quick tip ~ candles

So, as I pack up my candle collection, I not only realize how many of these I have everywhere in the house (but I was a Partylite consultant in 1998/1999 right so that’s my excuse), but I realize I should finish them up and clean them up as I go.

And I’ve made use of this handy quick tip that maybe not everyone knows about, so here it is.

Yes, blog readers, if you’re going to learn something new every day, it might as well be this:

To get the last bit of wax out of the bottom of your candle-holder, stick the whole thing in the freezer for about 10 minutes. When you take it out, it should pop out easily and all stay together in one piece. No more scraping at wax bits with a knife!

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