waste of pain
March 2nd, 2009 -- Posted in pain / disability, people suck | Comments OffI don’t expect every medical practitioner to hold my hand and tell me it’ll be OK (especially if that’s a lie), but why do so many of them have to be so rude?
I’ve now been to 2 of the 4 “examinations” my car accident insurance is sending me for. and it’s such a waste. of time, of energy, of pain. If I’m going to have to endure greater pain (which I do regularly), I’d rather it be for something worthwhile!! Like sitting on the floor with the kids or packing a box for the move.
Not being poked and prodded and pulled around while being interrogated.
I’m trying not to take it personally. I understand it’s standard that if someone has not made a full recovery in this length of time, those who are responsible for funding that recovery start to wonder why. They investigate to make sure it’s not insurance fraud. I respect that. And as someone who has been driving for 12 years (and has paid lots of $$$$ in car insurance) and who will be driving for many many more years (and will pay tons of $$$$$$ dollars in car insurance), I appreciate the fact that the system guards against fraud.
What I don’t understand, respect, or appreciate is how the majority of us (the ones who are hurting and trying as best they can to get better) are treated like absolute crap as a result.
I literally used the phrase “That’s why I’m not doing that.” at least 3 times this morning when being told by the occupational therapist something along the lines of “You can’t just….”.
Because I’m NOT just sitting around with my “head stuck in the sand”. Or waiting for a miracle cure. Or “quit[ting] yoga” or stopping all activity or “stagnating” forever.
And it offends me that after asking me a few questions about my current disabilities, some doctor can start making assumptions. While contradicting herself. And cutting me off and telling me she doesn’t want “all the details” and then 5 minutes later reproaching me for not including a detail! ARGH!!!
If you see my later this week and I’m bald, it’s because people like this make me want to pull my hair out.
