letter to myself
April 18th, 2009 -- Posted in OCD, people suck | Comments OffDear Kris,
I’m really proud of you – look how far you’ve come in the past few years! You have a much better handle on your OCD and aren’t always at the mercy of whatever spiral of emotions it feels like throwing you down!
Today, you accepted the feeling of anger, allowed it to have some time, and then let it go. It didn’t hold you hostage, spirnning out of control. It didn’t ruin your day or waste any time with rumination.
Instead, you acknowledged “Yes, that sucks. Yes, it’s sad.” You gave it some thought while still doing other tasks of the day. You made a decision you were comfortable with and went on with things.
There will always be cruel people in the world that you will have to deal with. And with your trusting nature, you may not be as quick to forgive as others. But you’re learning, and you’re becoming more protective of yourself in the process. You now surround yourself with people who are supportive, loyal, and caring and distance yourself from those who disagree on fundamental principles of friendship and trust.
I’m glad you have addressed this issue head on and can now just move right along with other things that are more important. Yes, anger and sadness will come and they are powerful emotions. But you are past the point of letting them control you the way they once did. You can stop the snowballing OCD thoughts in their tracks and channel your energy into healthy and nurturing activities.
I finally caved in an got the 
And my memory is just shot all to hell.
