January 25th, 2012 -- Posted in EZ-blog Oven, domestic engineering, family, knitty/stitchy, life as a mom, pain / disability |
So not only have things not improved in the past 2 months, they have gotten much worse…
In December, I tried my best to give my kids a “normal” Christmas, but of course, I overdid it. Even though I kept cutting back my ToDo list, I couldn’t keep up. Of all my ambitions, many weren’t realized. For instance, I had planned to put an adorable hand-knit hat (or scarf) on the head (or neck) of many many a close friend’s young child! But I only ended up finishing 1 scarf in time to give for the actual day.
I did most of my shopping early, I did a lot of it online. I started wrapping early. I set lower standards for myself (like “only” making 12 handmade cards). I tried to “pace” myself as much as I could (I still have not learned if that’s an official thing you can learn and apply to pain in a unique way, but I just spread things out in a common sense way!). But still, I totally crashed…
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October 27th, 2011 -- Posted in angels |
Another October, another time for lighting candles for our 3 angel babies…
Also another time for our annual donation to the March of Dimes for the work they do with families with premature babies, NICU babies and those who have lost a baby or fetus. I know their Berreavement package was very helpful to me when I was grieving my losses, and I want to make sure that good work can continue.
Previously, you may remember, I had created one for our 2nd lost baby, willow… This year for our donation, I created a band for sienna:
sienna’s band
Next year I will try to remember to create a third band for our other miscarried baby so that they all have one.
If you are someone who makes regular donations to charities, please consider making a donation in the name of one of our angel babies, or just towards the March of Dimes in general.
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October 1st, 2011 -- Posted in family, massage/physio/chiro, pain / disability |
What is it they say about bad things coming in threes? Someone please tell me they stop there…
I updated the description of my pain/disability category to the following:
“After being hit twice by careless drivers (once in 2000, once in 2008), I’ve been left with permanent spinal injuries and with daily chronic pain. A 3rd collision in 2011 caused by another careless driver added to the psychological trauma and fear of being a magnet for bad luck.”
JUST what we needed right?! And this time I wasn’t alone in the car either, my husband and daughter were with me, so now they are hurting directly too, not just indirectly through losing my care and attention…
It’s hard to say what ranked higher on the scale of “freaked out”: my mind or my muscles… This newest collision was minor compared to my first time getting hit and was even maybe less of a “jolt” than the 2nd collision a few years ago. But it has taken all the work I’ve done on battling the fears of being out on the road and brought it backwards.
As for the muscles, everything has been very flared up. I went right to my massage therapist the day after we were struck and he said that even laying his hands gently allowed him to felt my muscles twitching. One session calmed them down, but even within that same afternoon, I could feel them acting up again.
So here we go again, adding something on top to recover from. I keep saying “Once I recover from __, I can get back to work recovering from ___”, but now things are stacked up SO high on top of one another, I don’t even know how to get through this pile or if it is even possible anymore!
My body and mind have been bashed at so much from all angles, they just feel like giving in and giving up. I’ve always been a fighter, but there’s only so much one person can take!!!
